today started off kind of fast. i woke up to a text from my friend about her breaking up with her boyfriend and immediately told her to come over, which she did for a few hours before heading to work. we watched invincible and got coffee and i just tried to comfort her and distract her. after she left i sat around for a while before my dad called asking me if i still wanted to get my hair cut.
i had been wanting to get my hair cut to a shorter shaggy/mop style from my chest length hair. i told him yes, as my step mom is a hair stylist. i waited for around two hours for them to show up and after they picked me up we visited my paternal grandpa before going to visit my paternal grandma. my cousins and aunt were in the living room watching a movie while my grandma made dinner in the kitchen as my step mom sets me up to cut my hair. i show her the several pictures i have of the style as ive had it before, showed her the preferred length and if she goes shorter a short length. we verbalized what i wanted as well.
i sat there for about 15 minutes before she was done and when i looked the mirror i honestly was appalled. my best feature is my hair, and i've gone to great lengths lately to take great care of it, and i had been so excited for the style i wanted - but this wasn't what i wanted. the sides are so short it really shows off my awkward headshape and the top is way longer than the rest, almost as if she gave me an undercut, just not shaved. i basically look like butters from south park or something. it honestly made me so upset. i noticed the sides were uneven though and for some foolish idea i decided to let her try to even it out. i sit down and she starts cutting the shorter side instead of the longer side. i gently point out to her that shes cutting the wrong side and she corrects herself. (its still uneven)
im honestly so upset at that point that i excused myself to go smoke a cigarette, and my cousins could tell i did Not like the haircut and my dad definitely knew it wasnt what i wanted, but he still exclaimed that it looked great. i honestly look horrible. i asked to go home and lied about needing to be there by 8pm but they linger for an extra 15 minutes before we finally leave. as soon as i got home i broke into tears. i just felt so stupid - my hair was beautiful before. if i had known she was going to do this, i would've pestered my grandparents more about taking me to a salon. i called and cried to my mom and showed her the pictures and she tried to comfort me, and i texted my cousin who was there about it. she said she knew my step mom had done something wrong by my face but she hadn't known what i wanted and when i showed her, she said she would've thrown a fit if it were her.
that made me feel a bit better, knowing someone else acknowledged what my stepmom had done. both my mom and cousin said my stepmom mightve done this on purpose, though i was already feeling that way myself. either way, i'm stuck like this now until it grows out. my cousin suggested wearing beanies so i dug one up out of my drawer. its felt and covered in cat hair, but i dusted most of it off and threw it on and it looks okay like this. it kind of gives jessie pinkman with bangs?
anyways, just needed to ramble about my day. i have like 5 inches of my hair in a ziplock baggie in my bathroom and it just makes me so sad to look at. idk if in should keep it or not, i know my mom used to keep lockets of my hair from when i'd get haircuts, so maybe she'd want it LOL but yeah thats all really. heres to hoping my hair grows fast!