watching

ahs coven

reading

rereading csm

listening to

b.y.o.b. - system of a down

feeling

sleepy

back

december 26, 2023

holidays

mentions of death and family loss

christmas was yesterday! it went okay, thankfully! no fighting from the family aside from my grandpa fussing at me a bit. i didn't get many gifts under the tree because what i ordered has yet to come in. i got underwear, socks and shampoo and conditioner under the tree, while i have the csm manga boxset and two nendoroids coming in! i chose asuka since shes having a rerun and obito cuz he was Finally announced - immediate pre order. i wont lie, i've never had a nendoroid before, but i've ALWAYS wanted one. i'm quite excited to be getting two :3

the manga boxset is Supposed to come in today, but i kind of think it'll be tomorrow. other than that, i've just been chilling. my boyfriend and i have been watching american horror story coven. i first watched it when i was like 13 or 14 and i don't remember much. it's been fun watching it! my boyfriend asked me why this season was well made and i laughed because his only other ahs experience was the 80s one, which was super cheesy and more like a parody.

sadly though, my seasonal depression has started to kick in. i don't think i'm ready for the lows of it this year, after losing my aunt, my cousin and a close friend all to fentanyl in such a short span. death isn't easy for me, after losing my other aunt in 2016. she was a mother figure for me, and i was super close to her and her loss shook our whole family. we still haven't recovered from it. so these three recent deaths have really hit hard, especially when i feel like i should have reached out more for all three of them.

i know i'll make it through this, though.